Previously, my mum wrote a short piece from her perspective on how things had been going in Australia a few months after we moved to Cambodia. This post is a follow on from that one:
It is now 9 months since our son, daughter-in-law, and grandchildren headed overseas. We watch their progress through internet connections like WhatsApp and Facebook, Skype sessions, and sometimes, phone calls. We can see the children growing and becoming oriented to their new circumstances.
There are many good things that can come from a grandparent relationship. Grandparents have the opportunity to provide undivided attention for a time, and can reinforce the special value of that child. Grandparents can be part of giving a child a perspective on life that goes beyond the view of their peers. So the challenge comes to us – can we do any of this for our grandchildren when we are in different countries? Can any of this be communicated in short bursts of Skype? It’s really hard to know.
The other issue we deal with is the sense of loss that comes from our grandchildren (and their parents!) being so far away. Managing a sense of loss can be a tricky thing as sadness is one of those emotions that is “magnetic” – you are feeling the loss, and every other sad or lost situation comes racing in as well, until you are immersed in a “storm of lostness”. But on the other hand the loss is real and pretending it is not there doesn’t address the situation either.
The reality, contrary to popular belief, is that losses don’t heal with time. They actually get deeper because the time you are separated from the person/situation/etc gets longer as time passes. The impact of loss lessens, in the sense that you learn to live with it, rather than it actually going away. Other positives can come into your life that help to restore a bit more of the balance between the losses and the joys. As to where I’m at–it’s still in a fluctuating state, sometimes feeling the loss keenly, sometimes feeling the joy of things that happen in life here.
We miss our overseas family. I am thankful we live in the technological era that we do, so that we can maintain contact with them. We also need to focus on what we are meant to be doing, following the purpose that is ours in Australia, just as our overseas family are following their mission.
Hmm the phrase used that losses get deeper and don’t heal resonates with me. And learning to live with the pain……..
This is helpful language. It’s great to have people articulate what we/I feel. Sometimes we don’t have the words ourselves.
Sounds like you’re in the middle of this experience too. Yeah articulating helps quantify the loss and so deal with it properly. Its helpful to chat about it so that all parties can play a part in helping to process the loss.
Thank you for this perspective, so helpful for me to read this.
No worries. Its great to have multiple perspectives on subjects and experiences.
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